I hadn't been into London for a while and after a trip visiting friends last weekend I was reminded of the diverse energy the city holds. I never get bored of being on the tube and imagining people's lives - not Girl On The Train Style, don't worry - but more a sense of curiosity as to how everyone sees life from a completely different perspective, dependent on their own circumstances.
Inspired by my weekend exploring new areas of the city and stumbling on random, eccentric art exhibitions in Saville Row and Mayfair, I thought I'd explore the things that hold me back from doing certain things in my life and why I, and you, shouldn't let anything external hold you back. The artists behind the work I saw over the weekend definitely weren't afraid to think outside the box!
One of the most fulfilling things in life are relationships. They can bring you up - or tear you down - but they enrich our lives and make us who we are. However, if the people around you don't really understand you or your path, it can be hard to take the chances you want to for fear of what others might think. I'm lucky to have an extremely loving and supportive family and group of friends but I know this isn't the case for everyone.
Even though I have so many wonderful people in my life, I know I have a habit of keeping my emotions in and I find it hard to open up to people, especially people I don't know very well. I consider myself a very friendly person on the whole but I know I can appear a bit 'standoffish' in new social situations, not because I'm judging other people but because I'm usually worrying what they'll think of me. And sometimes I feel like I'm the only single person in the blogging community but I know I must not be alone. Holla if you're out there!
I left a well paid job to do an internship in an industry I was more passionate about. Even though things didn't end up quite how I wanted, I don't regret my decision at all and took a lot away from the experience. Some people argue it's who you know in this world but I do think that being a decent person and working hard can get you to where you want to be as long as you believe in yourself.
I was terrified at the idea of starting a YouTube channel. I'm not sure what my friends or family really think about it but I try to remind myself of the saying 'those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind' It's a big world out there and even if one or two people enjoy reading my blog or watching my videos then I feel like I'm successful.
A TIME SHORTAGE
The idea for this post actually came to me when I was having an extremely unproductive day. Yes, it's good to take a break but I started feeling bad because I hadn't done all the things I wanted to do that day, like edit a couple of videos and write a blog post. Turning these negative thoughts around into something positive requires attention to your thoughts and for me, I've found vlogging has been very therapeutic. I just turn on my camera and tell you guys how I'm feeling! Who needs therapy eh? The point I'm trying to make is that sometimes I find myself spending more time complaining about a situation or that I'm wasting time when I could have done all the things on my to-do list if I'd been in the right mindset. We all have the same hours in a day, you are in control of how you use them! I've always loved are and enjoyed looking round this little art shop in Soho, it reminded me of Harry Potter! Sometimes the little everyday things can put things in perspective.
I'll be happy when I've lost 'x' amount of weight, I'll be happy when I get laser eye surgery. Two thoughts I'm embarrassed to say that have gone through my head countless numbers of times! How about instead of focusing on what we don't perceive as 'right' with us, we focus on the things we love about ourselves for a change? I find blogging is a place where self comparison is particularly rife, everyone's comparing everyone's content and quality of images to each other and it can be easy to let yourself feel you aren't good enough to compete with it all. I know I do anyway!
If there's one thing I've noticed about blogging, it's that the people who are the most open, positive and happy are the ones with the biggest following and attract the biggest audience. So if you have the desire to do something e.g. take an outfit photo in public (something I want to do more of myself) then just do it! Everyone has to start somewhere and you'll only regret it in the future. If you haven't already seen, I've started vlogging this month. For a long time I thought I wasn't pretty enough, funny enough or interesting enough to make YouTube videos but as soon as I decided not to care what people think and tell the negative voices in my head to be quiet, I gave it a go. And while I don't have many subscribers or views (yet!) I'm enjoying the process of creating these little snapshots of my life and I hope you enjoy following me on my journey .
I hope you enjoyed reading my thoughts on what's been holding me back. Please leave a comment if you can relate to anything I brought up and you can see more of my London trip over on my channel this week. Subscribe here so you don't miss it! And in case you haven't caught up on the last one...